Free thoughts - 6

Heal the world, but heal yourself first

M.J had said "Heal the world, make it a better place, for you, me and the entire human race".

To make the world a better place for myself, I should have found what makes me happy...but looks like I haven't really figured out what I am looking for, seeking for.

I keep looking for meaning in Songs, I keep asking the roads that I travel, to find a peace place, I keep asking every new place I visit - Are you my Home? Hope I figure out what I need, and what I want.

The more I am irritated, agitated, angry, I am sure I can't contribute to make the world a better place.

The undelivered Email

I pity eMails, it's still considered a young, undependable younger one amongst the communication siblings.

The poor eMails are not given a chance to do it's job, as soon a mail is sent, the same communication is sent by Message or through a call and the worst part on how the communication ends "I have sent you a mail on this, please check and revert".

I am like "Then why did you even message/call, when you have already sent a mail?"

Is it that they don't trust Mail delivery?

Is it that they don't trust us reading Emails?

I guess Emails have become an integral part of our work, and most of us have access to Emails 24/7 both on Laptop and Mobile phones.

Gone are the days when I used to say "I am on vacation and have no/limited access to mails".

It's high time Email is given its due credit as a dependable mode of communication, it gives the recipients the liberty and prioritisation to respond to the communication!

Explain your Smell

I can describe my feelings in words,

I can put words to my emotions,

I can explain what I see,

I can elucidate what I hear,

I can describe how my food tastes,

But I can never describe what I smell..

We only tend to explain a smell as "that odd smell, that pungent smell, that smells great, that smells good", but we can hardly explain how it smells.

How do you describe the smell of a News Paper, new Car, voggaraNe, my body smell, her body smell, smell of my bed, my room?

Each of us have a unique body smell, that our sensors identify and recognise, but we can never explain how it smells!

What Man cries

I want to cry my struggles out loud,

I want to scream from the top of a building what pains me,

I want to pour out my frustrations with everyone I meet,

I want to share my heart break sagas,

But what the heck..

What kinda man is he who can't endure pain,

What kinda heart is it, if it isn't broken.

Heard this impressive dialog in a movie "If the pregnancy and delivery pain was supposed to be borne by Men, then there would be no more Men left on earth, that's why the pain is given to women who are built to endure pain".

So I now resort to crying under the rain, writing my sad stories on a white wall using a white chalk, screaming at myself while driving alone in my car with loud music, with all windows rolled up.

And pretend I am unfazed, unbreakable and composed to handle any crisis or challenge!

Timelessness

Somewhere far, up on the Arctic circle, is an island called Samanoy.

People there have abolished time!

There is no clock, no one urging you to do anything, no schedule to follow, you can sleep, eat, work whenever you feel like.

It makes sense, as they either have 24 hours of sunlight or 24 hours without sunlight.

It's a Mirror without time!

The first thing that came to my mind was, what would Narayana Murthy do if he was packed to that island, or what would those Norwegians do to him!?

What would I do if I was there?

There are things I want to unlearn, there are things I want to not learn, and that's what I will do.

There could be logical, practical questions, but I guess we just need to change the perception of life, a life without a sense of time!

What would you do if you were there?

The different Me's

The work me, the home me, the partying me, the romantic me, the lonely me, the travelling me, we all are different and we don't like to meet each other, see each other.

Unsure who is my favourite, don't know which me do I like to be most of the times.

"Hey guys, can we work together? We all are technically one person, we need to work as a team."

Everyone else in one voice: "Yeah, we are in sync most of the times...but that Work guy, we hate him"

Anesthesia

I sometimes feel jealous when I come across people who can fall asleep anytime, anywhere, they are indeed blessed.

I have always been mesmerized with the concept of sleep, where we literally are in an unconscious state and simply shut down the system.

It's like the built in Anesthesia, which simply disconnects the nervous system and let us not feel anything.

I try to get my anesthesia through music, Wife's Love. Going back a few years, granny's stories, mom's lullabies going further back.

I was observing a Lizard, which just patiently stayed still for hours to make the right move and gulp an insect, it's dinner probably.

Though having meals two times a day is a huge task for all Animals, as they have to fight and hunt, but all other times they just relax and sleep.

With us, survival is more than just eating...it's society, responsibilities, duties, ambitions, aspirations.

A humble gentleman from spiritual background hailing from Udupi once told me "Job is important and is required, to be productive and earn for your living, but you guys have made job your life".

Indeed true, not only do we bring back work to home, but we can't stop thinking about it all day and night.